note: not a happy post wor..
Yesterday, one of the uncle that went for physio with me passed away. i used to dislike talking to him cos he sibei hao lian n negative but gradually i accepted that he is what he is bcos of the shit he been thru.. He had been thru alot. His family depised him for his illness during the worst time of his life. It was painful to him bcos he did alot for the family. His illness, muscular dystrophy cause his limbs to grow weaker day by day and prolonged sitting and laying caused pain all over his body, making him bad tempered always. The 1st time he toked abt his family and how his 2nd son blamed him for inheriting muscular dystrophy to him and his son, i felt very sad for him, esp when i saw him crying..
Then on jan, he took me that he was diagnoised with bone cancer. and it was the terminal stage. This time he didn't cry. He says that he hoped that his time on earth will b up soon cos its too hard for him to bear and he cldn't do anything to ease it.. I wanted to say, 'Uncle, b strong.' but the very minute i heard those words, i had to excuse myself to go to the washroom cos i din wan him to see the tears that had uncontrollingly rolled down.. i told myself that i wan do something for uncle like asking my dad's sinseh's frenz to go uncle's hse and c if he can do anything to ease uncle's body ache, but b4 that cld b arranged.. uncle was gone.. i felt awful when clement's maid (in the same bus) announced that uncle lim had passed away last thu during our bus ride yesterday. But the ex-warrant officer uncle who was initially talking happily to me was shocked and i saw him cried abit. We all grew quiet and the rest of the ride to the rehab centre was quiet..
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2 comments:
we nv know it when death is near. Sometimes, it is so sudden. Just like my student's father who passed away. That sms he sent to me were the last words he said to me, he thanked me for teaching his children. A day later, he left. I guess somehow he knew his time was going to be up soon. His smile, those words he said to me is part of the reason why I commit myself to help his children. I hope I can be of help.
We have reached an age...when pple ard us are getting married, forming families and at the same time..these few years, i have been experiencing quite a few deaths around me. Although not closely related, they are people who I had interactions with. It is less than traumatic but it makes me think about life and its unpredictability.
I shall go and visit my neighbour's mother soon. I used to go to her house often when I was in Sec Sch because her son was my tutor. (I didn't learn much from him, it was more like lesson preparation in advance. However, ever since then ..he became one of those "elder" friends of mine..i think he is 40+ now, not married, one of my fav pple. Anyway....) She is very ill and I didn't even go and see her during New Year. Why? Many reasons but one of the reasons is... I was afraid, don't know what to say if she cries or something like that..so I avoided it *guilty* She said she wants to eat "wife cake" from HK but all these years, we didn't buy them for her because she is diabetic . We are fearful that something might happen if she consumes such food. Sometimes, my mother jokes that she is hanging on because she has yet to taste the HK wife cake again. (The wife cake she mentioned is a kind with egg yolk which we've nv seen b4)
May Uncle Lim rest in peace.
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